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[21 Sep 2010|02:29pm]
I (Officially) have a boyfriend!

That is all :D
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[15 Sep 2010|03:13pm]
"Cigarettes are awesome"
"Yes they are. They keep me company on long drives. And make me look cool to teenagers."
"Which is important. Reading teens no longer think smoking is cool, so I've resorted to huffing Rustoleum on the metro to gain their favor."
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[29 Aug 2010|12:16am]
I seem to have injured my ankle yesterday. Or something. It hurts for no reason =(
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[28 Aug 2010|03:47am]
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[26 Aug 2010|10:14am]

I'm in such a good mood today.
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[17 Aug 2010|10:18am]
Today is a very "alone" kind of day. The woman I sit next to isn't here today, so I've pretty much already had all of the speaking conversation I'm bound to have today and I like it. I haven't been in much of a talkative mood lately, and I know it's because I've been all down and shit. I don't feel like I'm festering anymore. I just.. don't feel like talking. Sometimes I like to pretend I'm in a bubble. That's how today is going. I'm in my bubble and I like it here.

I also had a dream last night that feels very symbolic. Or profound. Or something. It's weird because it was only a dream, but I feel different today. In a good way. I was pregnant in the dream. I wasn't married and who the father was wasn't indicated. I was with my grandmother and stepdad in a hospital that looked like my grandma's living room. I gave birth there. I was upset because my mom was no where to be seen but I was also in such awe over the fact that I just delivered a kid. It was boy and I named him Holden James. My grandma said "Oh, after Holden Beach?" (Which is where my family vacations) and I said "No, Holden as in Caulfield, Catcher in the Rye."

The dream ended with an about 8 month old Holden sitting on my lap and I'm bouncing him while he's holding on to my hands, with a huge smile on his face. I've been pregnant in dreams before but I've never given birth in one. And only in one other dream was I already a mother. About 4 years ago I had a dream that I was very pregnant watching Ryan play basketball with our 16 and 12 year old sons. Why do I always have boys?

Anyway. The Holden dream felt like a shift. I dunno what shifted. But I feel different. It's weird.
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[06 Aug 2010|12:59pm]
Oh! There was a bat on the wall by the entrance to work. It's so tiny and cute! I've never seen a wild bat sitting still in person. I took a bunch of pictures. Most are blurry though. Its tiny little eyes, aww. I wanted to touch it.

So I took some pictures and showed one to my coworker and she couldn't tell what it was. And when I told her she almost dropped my phone. I HAVE to remember that a lot of people don't find the stuff I like cute. Then I apologized and told her I thought it was cute so I wanted to share. She said "You would think it's cute. You like snakes and rats."

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[05 Aug 2010|05:44pm]
Meghan: I want to put you two in my pocket and carry you guys around all day.
Diana: ‎:) yay!!! hear that? we have a place to live babe!
George: Back pocket? Or front pocket? :)
Meghan: I'll let you guys pick, I'm nice like that :D
Diana: yay!!! hear that? we can pick! :D
George: Well Lady Arielle showed us what the back pocket has to offer, nice, very nice, but me? I like the scintillating mystery of the Front Pocket ;)

LOLOLOLOL. I love them so much. I really do want them to live in my pocket. I'm such a creeper.
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[01 Aug 2010|03:40pm]
I love you so much. YOU'RE NOT IMPORTANT TO ME.
She's just a friend. HAI I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND.
I don't want to hurt you. I WON'T TELL YOU WHEN SHE'LL BE AROUND.

Fuck, man. What the hell.
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[27 Jul 2010|10:41am]
I think I have a piece of popcorn stuck in my teeth. I can't get it out no matter how hard I try. And it's really starting to hurt. Boooo

I was going to talk about something else today but I do not remember what it was now.

This weekend is my last weekend of down time until the end of August. I'm not sure how my weekends magically fill up like this in the summer. Not that I'm complaining, it's nice. I'm still anxious about Games Day weekend, but I'm fairly positive I'll be capable of ignoring/acting like nothing's wrong with Ryan around. I might have to disappear every now and then but I think for the most part it'll be okay. I miss him being my friend. We have nothing to talk about at the moment, but I hate feeling like I can't.

We were supposed to go see Divine Heresy and Fear Factory tonight. Obviously not happening, which is for the best for several reasons. One of which being I'm really trying to save my money now for various things.

I have been dreaming non stop every night since Friday. It's quite exhausting. At least last night's wasn't a nightmare like all of the others.

I bought a $5 laser pointer for the cats. Ellie mostly ignores it like she mostly ignores every single toy. Misha LOOOOOVES it. After she was done puffing at it and running away, she realized it was a toy. She chases that thing like crazy. She'll get so wound up that her nose is flaming red and she's panting. So at that point I put it away but then she gets all twitchy, mews, and starts searching for it. So I play with her for another couple of minutes until she just flops over on her side. But as soon as I put it away she's mewing for it and twitching and searching. It's fucking funny. And now I know how she'll drop that extra chub she's got. I do NOT want my cats to end up like my mom's. So fat that they can't really do much of anything but lay down.
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[23 Jul 2010|09:54am]
So I'm looking up various McDonald's to see which one is easier to meet my mom at later so I can pick Becca up. And I came across a review of this one on Google:

The place is BAWLIN' yo. Chicken nuggitz be crispy like you never SEEN. I tasted one and was like "WHAAAAT! Are you serious?" Mean girls working the fryers, tho. This one chick woulden't even let me holla. I was like, "please you ugly anyway."‎

LMAO. Oh my god. I.. I can't. I don't have any words. I really, really needed to share this.
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[21 Jul 2010|01:18pm]
Coworker: "What's Lady Gaga's real name? Like Stefani or something?"
Me: "Yeah, it's Stefani."
Coworker: "Or Kimberly? Or Tiffany? Something like that?"
Me: "No, it's Stefani."
Coworker: "WOW! I just guessed at that! That's pretty cool!"

Uhhhhh.. wow. Besides the fact that she continued to guess after I told her she was correct, she's asked me what her name is about 4 times this month. So technically it wasn't really a guess haha.
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[19 Jul 2010|12:15pm]
This weekend was a bunch of fun. Went over to Kris's house where we girled it up for a few hours before leaving for Tiesto. Thankfully she only lived like 10 minutes from the venue, so that was nice. I wore Kris's silver combat style knee high boots. A strapless black top with mirror-like circles on it, but I wore it as a skirt instead of a top. And a black t-shirt of mine with a wide silver belt just under my boobs because I look ridiculous if I wear a belt around my waist. I looked pretty good. High ponytail. Lilacish purple glitter on my eyes. I'm excited to get the pictures from Kris. At some point haha.

We danced. A lot. And drank $4 bottles of water, those bastards. I was expecting $3, silly me. Though they lost money on me. I would have bought one more bottle of water if they were $3. But I refused to spend $12 on water, so I kept it at two bottles.

Some dude pressed his crotch into my my ass, while trying to "dance" with me. I pushed him off of me, then Kris got all momma bear and told him to get the fuck off her girlfriend. I love using that line. No straight guy ever questions it. But seriously, just because I'm in a skirt (Which wasn't even all that short because it was a shirt) and in the same venue as you does not give you permission to shove your pelvis at me. Fuck you. I wanted to murder anyone who even brushed by me because it was so ungodly hot. So I was exponentially less pleased that someone was actively trying to touch me.

But it was still fun. I have a couple pictures to show the amount of people and some video. But either my hands were covering the speaker or my phone sucks at capturing music. Which would be a bummer because my last phone took excellent audio.

I was going to talk about more stuff but I lost interest. Maybe later.
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[14 Jul 2010|02:08pm]
Also for those of you not on my Twitter: I have a new screen name and it is Angry Cephalopod.
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[24 Jun 2010|11:34am]
Miley Cyrus is such a moron. She really is just a dumb kid. I think she decided to be a child star and then realized she didn't need to try at anything anymore.

"She thinks that upon closer inspection her lyrics empower young women"

That is from an article. No, no they do not empower young women.

Talking about one of her songs on her new album: I wrote it for women that feel like they're stuck in abusive relationships, but it's a dance song," she said. "So you think that must be kind of a sad ballad, but it's a party song. ... It's about breaking free."

Really? How about you go out into the world and learn some stuff. You are SEVENTEEN. I don't think you've earned the right to empower women yet. And quite honestly I think she lacks the brainpower to ever empower a smart woman.

She needs to just.. go away. Take your money and your horrible posture and your "like and stuff" vocabulary and just.. go away. Leave us alone. Little girls don't need "women" like you to look up to.
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[22 Jun 2010|01:00pm]
I just ordered this. I had been eyeballing it in red with white polka dots but then I looked at the company's facebook page and saw the cherry suit on a bunch of customers. It was a lot more flattering on all of them than the polka dot pattern. Oh man, I'm so excited. I haven't bought a new suit in about 4 or 5 years. And this should look totally awesome on me. Yes, I'm ever so modest. Actually, it's just that I have a general idea of what looks good on me and what doesn't. Halters, look good on me. Boy short shaped butt area? Also looks good. Cuz I have broad shoulders and an ass.

And as long as I try it on with underwear on the return policy is great.

I love googling "store name coupon code." By doing that I saved $7.80 because of a "Save 10% on your first order" code. Meaning I almost saved all of my shipping costs.

Soooo excited. I bought it for the pool in Baltimore.

Excited for that as well. I needs to pay people for stuff in regards to that trip.

Called out of work today due to a migraine. It has died down but still hurts. Booo.
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[17 Jun 2010|10:46am]
I'm considering moving closer to the Reading area. The closest person I have to me is my ex boyfriend. And we're barely talking so it's not like I spend a lot of time with him. It's not like I'm avoiding him. I just don't have anything to say to him.

If I move closer to Reading I won't have to drive an hour to see the WoW people. Or Hannah. This wouldn't happen for awhile though. I'd need to save up money for moving expenses, first month's rent, and security deposit. I'm eyeballing Wyomissing. Every time I'm in Wyomissing, I like it. It's a nice area. It will extend my commute but I don't mind driving. I can deal with that. I miss being in the middle of everything. In Jersey I was like under 40 minutes away from any where I could possibly want to go that wasn't Philly or NYC. In Pennsburg I have to drive 20 minutes to just find like a TGI Friday. Forget even being near a mall.

My area served me well when I needed to get out last year. When I needed a new place like 15 minutes ago. But now I think I wanna be closer to goings on. And friends. I told Hannah we should be roommates.

Like I said, it wouldn't happen for awhile because I'd have to save up like atleast $1000. But with my raise, I'm making an extra almost $90 a month after taxes. And I'm looking at my expenses and will be cutting shit out. Like I'm only gunna buy ONE pack of cigarettes on Saturdays only. Instead of buying two whenever the hell I want, which is frequently as of late. And I'll cancel my gym membership. I have no idea how much I'd be able to save each month. I'm expecting it to be extremely slow going.

But I've pretty much decided that this is what I want to do. Nothing is keeping me where I am except for a lease that goes month to month in like 2 weeks. I'd like to be in a new place in roughly a year. But like I said that depends on how much I've managed to save.
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[14 Jun 2010|08:02pm]
I'm going to girl/geek out over my new phone.

IT'S SO AWESOME. First phone I've ever bought that I was SUPER excited to have and it hasn't let me down. It's got edge on it so rather than incur any data charges I didn't mean to incur I called ATT and had them shut off my internet access. Which means I can't get or send picture texts anymore. Which is fine because from the reviews I've read the picture texting doesn't work on this phone in the US anyway.

GAH. It's pretty. And colorful. And it's got a neat font. And I LOVE that the numbers align on the left and that the keyboard opens to the left. GO LEFTIES. And I called my grandma and she didn't say "What?" to me once! She said I sounded crystal clear. And she sounded perfect too. Oh man, I'm so fuckin giddy about this. I'm making excuses to text people. CUZ I DON'T HAVE TO PUSH A BUTTON 5 TIMES ANYMORE JUST TO TYPE OUT HI. This keyboard is going to be easily one of the best things that's happened to me.

Uggggh I'm so damn pleased with it I can hardly contain myself. AND Samsung was nice enough to include a US outlet adapter. Thank you Samsung! <3
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[10 Jun 2010|07:04pm]
I..... have wanted to kill my coworkers numerous times this week. Today it was because the woman who sits next to me and a woman I severely dislike had a 20 minute conversation on the theeeemes and colors in their houses.

"Oh! I painted that room Wildflower. I thought it was a very pretty color."
"Wildflower? What color is that like?"
"It's kind of like a terra cotta."
"That sounds beautiful."
"Yeah, I thought it was."


And they went along those lines for TWENTY MINUTES. THE ONLY OTHER THING MORE BORING THAN THAT IS THE TIME THE WOMAN WHO SITS NEXT ME TO HAD A 10 MINUTE CONVERSATION ABOUT THE NEW VALANCE SHE BOUGHT. Maybe it has something to do with their old lady tastes. You know how you can walk into a house and know an old lady lives there? Cat pillows and cow stuff in the kitchen and Boyds bears and floral furniture? That's exactly what I'm picturing their houses look like.

Everyone at my work is so anal about the themes in their houses. One woman gave away a new rug she had bought because she didn't realize it was more French country than contemporary country. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU ARE SAYING. WTF is the difference?! I'm sure some people really, really care. But I really, really don't. You know what my themes are? Color schemes. My room is reds, gold-ish yellows, and black. My living room/kitchen is like a sage green. And my bathroom is brown and teal. And nothing has to match 100%

Another rage inducing moment was yesterday when the business administrator's daughter-in-law was there with her 14 month old baby and I had to listen to fucking 20 women cooing over a baby for an hour. Then one of them picked up the baby, sat 7 feet behind me, and started saying "Wind the baby, wind the baby... pull, pull... a-tap, tap, tap." FOR TEN MINUTES. I understand that the baby was loving the shit out of it. But dear god, woman. I only care about babies I know. I don't know that baby. Therefore you are presently annoying me so bad I want to shove my work blanket down your mouth until you choke.

Work will go a long time without offending me. Then in like a two week period I'll have wanted to kill everyone at least 5 times.

Granted I'm just angry in general today. I want to punch things.
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